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| Summer 08 is ending. Its been quite relaxing. I only seem to have faded memories in my mind. can't seem to remember much of the past for some odd reason. one of my hardest challenges id even rmring names of ppl i meet. just doesnt seem so important to me anymore. my favorite tv shows at th emoment are gossip girl and one tree hill. althouh i hve to say i dont like watching tv very much. Done some summer randoms this summer. growing up gets tough.became a lil more confident with my driving. Wings and Company is finally open . i love seeing my friends again although for the most part we have gone separate ways.went swimming several times. celebrates some bdays. took bio and lab at uh. hung out with lorraine and quang for the most part of that summer. chala came bak from india.i somehow end up at mix kareoke very often. Although i was already somewhat close to Vivek i got even closer to him. Vicheka and I spent the whole summer eating and shopping. Summer 2 i took govt with neil and some other ppl. went to the new outlet mall, splashtown with jimmy lam,rey, and josh, went to galveston with albert,vivek,anshul, muhommad , vicheka,nikki, and sarah. also went to kemah with lynn nikki anshul vicheka and vivek. went to ikea just to eat swedish meatballs. silly us. for the most part i still hang out with the boys from garcia. binh and jimmy aren't friends anymore.josh came back this summer for a good two weeks. the boys took a roadtrip to chicago this summer. before we left we rented a hotel and i pretty much tried alcohol for one of the first times.i actually read a book this summmer. usuallly if i had a choice i wouldnt read. but twilight was a pretty good book . can't wait till the movie comes out and to start reading the next several books in the series. parents actually considered letting me transfer out of city sooo austin or dallas here i come. as for the fall i will be attending UH and taking calculus, stats, and organic.as for parents they're still the same . arguing as always. cats getting older, smarter, sneakier, slyer, a lil chubbier too hehe. hoepfully God has his path for her . Olivia shes doing good although deep down we all know shes getting weaker. i recently quit my job at wetseal this summer. wow ive been ther efor nearly over a year probably. they think im a true soldier . hehe.as we all grow older. summer and all those relaxed days spending together , girl talks just seem even more cherishable reminding us that we're growing up so fast . that although its important to mature we still hve to rmr our childish teenage self deep inside. well atleast for the most part i know im still a kid at heart. overall this summer was definately a reliever. a piece of me will always be withi n my friends, my best friends. Guess its time to say good bye once more as we all go separetly and start our own journey for another year to come.
<3 Cindy
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| so its the second semester of college. christmas was fun. we had secret santa at my house. i got a lot of nice gifts. i still work at wetseal. i finally got my car back that my brother took a way for a good month. i love the gym. its relaxing. im taking bio. chem.poslci . hist and bio and chem lab. im off friday.knapp is boring. bott is cool. im sad sometimes b/c my friend might move. everyone in my family is finally doing good and everything's falling into place.cat moved back from austin. we're opening a restaurant. wings and company. i need to start studying hard core. i only care so much about a certain amount of individuals. chinese new years is coming up. i need to clean my room and apply for scholarships. anywhoo ig ues thats all the update on my boring life now days.
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| life's a lil beep. i dk somethings been wrong with me lately i can't even tell what it is. me and my random moodswings. me and my random bitchyness. havent been quite the best friend in the world to anyone. kinda starting to miss high school like crazy. at times im starting to feel so lonely. my chests starting to hurt so much. feels like im heart broken or something. somethings missing and i ccant quite find it. its nice to ha ve guys around. but then i guess its also nice to have girls who hve your back. idk. im not the same cindy iwas in high school i guess. what happened. how did i do everything? so college life definately sucks. sometimes ijust want to talk to one person. one person that probably would understand me. but i guesss im afraid to. talking to guys are easy. so releaxing. drama free. but yet. seems like i tell one of them something all of know. i guess sometimes i just wish i could talk to one person and thats it. tell them how i feel. and wats wrong with me. i have so many regrets but i wouldnt be who i am if i didnt move int he direction i did. at ths moment family just stressed me out. brothers being dumb. little sisters in the hospital. i dont think life gets any more compicated.i just miss when i was a child everyone was so happy. together. no worries. i miss when ihad friends who could make me forget about my rough times . maybe its just the way lifes supose to be. college has been interesting. chemistry sucks butt. psychology and history are okay and so is precal. and im just a lazy butt. everyone says i ve gotten mean.maybe i have. idk.im sorry for everyone i hurt. i know sorry just doesnt cut it sometimes. but i gues i need to start acknowledging why i do the things i do and how they effecct other. one thing i gotta say. my life is literally work, school, sleep, work... end of discussion. i misss everyone so much. abby, emily, nikki, david cooper. mickel farag, timmy. | | |
| Sooo. its beeen a while since i've written in here. maybe just for my own memory sake i write in here. so what's been going on with me? and my life? i finally graduated in the class of 2007 . can't believe the 4 years have past by so quickly. but...i hve to admit senior year was pretty interesting.Interact was quite stressful with ms.anderson and of course the other girls lynn betty nikki sarah and kei but we made it through even though our project , dance off didnt go through. congrats to our new president Chrystal. school has been so laid back. only stressfull class was probably dr.holts class when he assigned us those essays. so i got close to a bunch of individuals. we created our little group adventure girls... lynn sarah emily nikki lorraine. we go to the most random places ever.. park. sonics. emilys house. mall. i've gotten alot closer to quangy =).i've learned that alot of ppl can be two faced and im glad i dont communicate with them any more. homecoming with david chau was fun. prom with binh was fun. limo bus was stressful. cookie dough was even more stressful. my bday party at the my house was great. lynn helped a lot before she left =) thanks babe. Prograd was interesting. there was a bull and bowling and food and pool games and lazer tag.went to everyones graduation meaning jimmy, andy, binh, josh and of course ours kempner hieu, dat and calvin =P. i love them so much . can u believe its been 5 years now that i've known u guys? thanks for always being around one way or another for me. when i hang out with yall im not planning anyting, collecting money, giving anyone rides. im simply just there to laugh and hang out with yall.it feeels so relaxing.I'm glad that i got closer to rey and jon this summer =) and of course the wonderfull chris lee. anywho the one person im especially glad i got closer to this summer is lynn. i probably can't thank you enough for all the things uve actually done for me. i love gossiping with u although u hve a big mouth. and well thanks for putting up with me talking a lot.you're always going out of ur way to help me even though it has nothing to do with you.it means a lot to me to have that in a friend. i have a lot of friends that listen to me talk , but few that take actions. thanks lynn. lynns party was at my house, transformers was a kick butt movie, happy birthday to emily at cafe 101 and tropical tea tapioca. sarah is back in town from the phillipines and her bday was 2 days ago but for some reason we dont talk .Emily is miss talent 2007 congrats babe.u've been pretty stressed about this pageant more than anything else. besides that summers been pretty great.i hang out with binh jimmy hieu calvin dat andy josh nearyly everyday just like i did last summer and dont forget rey. galveston was interesting for me. got to spend the night. talked about old times. walmart was interesting.racing ont he seawall was also interesting. that was for josh's bday. josh is leaving to california.one person leaving our lil group =( its okay though right? we'll be at each others wedding and funeral because thats how strong our friendship is. and well as i continue to live. i think it's time for me to Disconnect from everyone but those who reallymean a lot to me.i dont feel like listening to drama or dealing with any of it . being in any part of it. daddy always told me he was a popular kid, but look whos around now? 50 years later. everything hes done for everyone . those friends all grew up and lived their own idv lives.in the end all you have is family. and as for there are the few ppl that are friends to me but are like family.and those are the only ppl i feel like being around for now. on the random note.i've been going to the gym everyday since summer started. i weigh the same or probably gained weight but i think i look slimmer. who knows. chala moved to india. schools about to starts and well i've pretty much drifted from everyone.but i dont really hve a problem about it. realized all i need are the ppl who will ALWAYS be around. and i've pretty much found them. U of H will be interesting esp since i get to go to it with all the guys from middle school. thats if i don't end up moving far away. anywho everyones leaving to go off to college in the next week or two . who k nows if i will know all these ppl in the future. but yea im gonna miss u guys emily, nikki, lorraine, neil, and a few other ind.i got ajob . i work at wetseal. lifes getting tough though. besides that family . familly. family always puts me in a wierd mood. i've pretty much matured a lot. taken some responsibilities in my hand.idk if ill be seeing cat for a while. =( i might be moving. due to some issues. got closer to my mom this year. but shes still herself selfish and inconsiderate. i miss great grandmother. idk. all i can do is pray. ehh sometimes i just dont understand others. i mean no offense but i think i hve a lot on my mind. i go through alot.but i dont go all emo and drag everyone else down with me. thats selfish. i am most definately not tryin to grab the center of attention either . i Know who my friends are. and i dont need anything more than that.i dont have time to grieve over stupid teenage drama. theres bigger things in life. i mean my parennts are one thing i wont ever be able to explain... my sisters another concern .she's getting older and older but dr. said that as time pass shes gonna get weaker and weaker. my brother Michael and all the stuff that he has o n his hands. cat and her parents. i despise that lady for she what she did. ijust feel like everythings crashing down sometimes. and idk lately things hve just been on the down fall. i found out some health risk about someone in my family today that i'm not suppose to k now about.i found out they have a tumor in their head. on top of that my mom's gonna have surgery in a couple months. somethings rong with her stomach. my dad's getting old. i'm really scared. but i'm a strong girl. great grandmother was always happy and she's been through so much. she lived 104 years and yet she managed to be strong. care for her family and love all her grand kids great grandkids. her smile everytime she saw us running around . during christmas when she'd have the happiest smile because everyone was together. wonder how she felt to get to see her great great great grand kids. wherever she is in heaven i know shes watching over us. i feel like she's alway with us. she's my idol. i'm strong because of her.the only thing thats been probably keeping me sane is allt he guys and lynn lately. thank yall for always putting a smile on my face. it means so much to me that yall are always there to make me laugh . that when im around yall im not stressed. i just simple talk and have fun. theres one person i really miss though. and i wish i could tell that person everything right now.idk why i miss them so much. or i randomly think about them when the time gets tough. i guess i just think they understand me more than i can ever imagine.RIP Great Grandmother Nguyen Thi Di. RIP Grandmother Huynh Thi Thang. RIP LuLu my loving dog. ur as old as i am. always happy to see me when i come home from school. how are you? how are things with Fifi. must feel good to be with ur mom . i can't believe its been 2 -3 years since all of yall lefts us in the same time spand. but we got through that year. how did we manage. and now it seems like its all piling back on us. you know what would be relaxing right now? walking around the cematary . its always peaceful and relaxing out there. so calm . all u feel is the wind . God set my journey and well things always happen for a reason. faith
will get me through all the tough times. well no one reads xanga and im
not expecting anyone to read this either. just for my satisfaction
because i hvnt written in a while.
<3 Cindy
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| As i was sitting in the corner of my house, i spotted my violin and decided to play it. It made me realize how much I've changed, grown, matured. I could just remember in 5th grade when i first picked up an instrument. I truely had a passion for it. It ammused me. I would always practice to be a first violin. whatever happened to that? then there came 6th and 7th grade. Ms. Bowerman. Mrs. M who always encouraged me. funny how so many memories come back. i can remember talking to Bobby tapia a couple years ago and him telling me wow! you quit orchestra, the cindy i knew never quit anything.that truely hit me. what happened? what happened to me? seems as though ive done everything in high school, but i also quit everything. i dont even remember anyone that i used to know. all those elementary crushes. playing house outside. playing tag . hanging out with the "popular" girls. wow has all that changed. or even the hot guy that lives down the street. to my best friend Christina. i wonder how she is.i rmring walking home with her everyday. how we cried together, laughed together. how she changed but we were still close. two seperate worlds the goth and the prep. everyone was ammused of how i hung out in a goth world, when i was so happy, so preppy. i could remember the smartest girl being erica clark. and how science fair was fun. or nydia was the sweetest girl. i rmr everyone telling each other that we would never lose touch when i left. we exchanged emails, phone numbers, addresses. So everyone kept touch during the first year then slowly year by year i guess that changed too. i really miss them though. i was so shy.so naive,so innocent, not a person in the world was mean, evil , two faced to me.but that view has all changed. i had sucha positive attitude. i was so shy, my grades were everything. i loved math, it was the one thing was good at. Mrs. Frederick-hicks always told me that i would be at the top of the world if i had math. you know sugar land is a difft experience for me, a challenge. idk if it is high school or if it was the city itself. but i always felt like home in pasadena. i always got recognized for everything but seems like everything i do here is jusss isnt enough. High school has changed me , seems like every year , i hve a difft world of ppl whom i hang out. there was a time where meeting ppl was so fun, or dancing parties. the things i didnt know freshman year i now know, maybe not all of it, but more than i did. i know that losing my great grandmother was painful, my grandma, and my dog. i was always scared to lose my great grandma, bc she was my world, there was a time when i hung out with tonia and debra and phuong n. or fong, vickie, vinita, to the time when i isolate myself to no one, or the time when i hung out with peter, allen , and tj. or the ppl who graduated and joined the army like adam.and of course i wont forget al lthe fun times i had insummer school, yes summer school . all the ppl i met there. hehe francis, and justin, and katherine, or cheryl, and stephen, i even got to see some old friends. seems like such a small world looking back. but comes to the point where theres only a few of those friends would stick around. only a few names would stick inmy head in the future. the funny part is the ppl i knew since 8th grade, the ppl i first met in sugar land are the ppl that stuck around. thanks guys, calvin, dat, jimmy, hieu, binh, josh, then im thankful for some of the girls nikki, emily, sarah, abby, chala,lynn. i know i left alot of ppl who truely mean alot to me, but the point is ppl graduate, different ppl split up into difft groups. difft groups do difft things. ppl change and things move on.ppl move, things happen, love stories are left behind and new ones begin. u can love somoene for a moment and hate them the next. thats what 4 years of high school does to you, yup, just 4 years of high school, so what happens when we all go to college? what happens when everyones busy studying or attending the parties of their life? what happens when we al lmeet new friends who we get close to, will the difft peer presssures and challenges to fit in make us or break us? no matter what though i will truelly never forget the ppl that made my life wonderful in high school. whether we still talk or not.thank you all for letting me be ur friend once in ur life. i k now no one reads this anymore. and ill prolly be the only one to come back and read this thing, so ill just leave it as that. <3 Cindy | | |
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